So, I’ve been shook up a lot recently. I’d been cruising along, building my spiritual practice, working, and keeping order in general, and volunteering on the side. Truly, a polyphasic sleep schedule is a wonderful thing to have.
A while back, one of our pets started to become severely ill. Roughly the same time, both my wife ind I caught a rather nasty variation on the flu. At the same time, we were thinking dark thoughts like how much can we afford to do to save our beloved family member. Between grief, sickness and fatigue, I went under fast. I lost both my spiritual balance, and my sleep schedule in one brief series of hits.
The loss of my awareness and all that entails can’t be described directly. Suffice it to say that since I’ve been gritting my teeth and re-focusing on the spiritual, I’ve been feeling my spiritual nature re-open, like the tip of the iceberg finding out how much more of it there is under the water.
The loss of the polyphasic schedule is much more obvious and easy to articulate. This schedule gave me an extra 4 hours per day. This is absolutely huge. On days where I work, I’m out of the house for 12-13 hours. Doesn’t leave a lot of time when you factor in the usual maintenance needed to keep life rolling along. With the sleep schedule, I could not only handle all of that (and keep house in a manner most awesome), but also have time for my spiritual pursuits, volunteering my time for transcription projects, and just plain recreation. Also, I was almost never tired.
Then boom, it all falls down. Imagine losing 2/3 of your non-sleep, non-work time. Already not feeling well, now I couldn’t maintain my schedule.
Having fought the good fight for some time, I eventually decided to work with the flow. As much as it hurt, I put the polyphasic sleep on the shelf for now. I wasn’t going to have an opportunity to resume soon, anyway.
That having been settled, the rest started falling into place. Letting go of the polyphasic sleep allows me to take care of the ailing pet. All that remains is budgeting time for spirituality and happiness first. The rest can look to itself.
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